...mm. [ xie lian makes a noise, quietly thoughtful. ]
It...what Archer did - were our situations reversed, I like to think I would have done the same. To protect someone important to me... really, to protect almost anyone. I was willing to take the vote, that first week, when we had no suspects at all, but today...
...but Emet-Selch was guilty. And, at the same time, he was not. He took someone else's life in self defense - someone that I cared about very much - but it was still in self-defense. And I do not fault him for doing so.
There is nothing here that is black and white. [ he finishes finally, letting out a sigh. ] So it is hard to feel anything but lost, the more of these trials that come by.
There is no one right and correct answer here. [ She agrees, echoing his words with different ones. ] All we can hope to do is make a decision we can live with even if we're not proud of it.
Archer isn't one to offer his life so willingly for just any reason, but...
[ She looks thoughtful, as if trying to be careful about what she says next. ]
I would think his reason is worth it. He is pragmatic even if he holds great affection.
...Archer and I are very similar, in many ways. Our thoughts have aligned more or less since we first arrived here, and I respect him greatly, and that has not changed.
It will always be hard for me, to watch someone stand up to take death for someone else. Perhaps it is simply because I've always been in that position, instead of watching from the sideline...and I have always felt that if I could be the one preventing it from happening, it would be different, simply because I have often not mattered to many, and death has never once touched my door permanently.
[ xie lian huffs a laugh. ] I suppose that is hypocritical of me. It is no fault of Archer's that I did not want to let things happen that way - it is my own.
[ Jeanne's smile is small but genuine for the briefest moment. ]
It takes certain experiences and a certain kind of enlightenment to have that kind of self-awareness.
[ However, it worries her, the words he says and the subtext that comes with it—how much he's hinted about not being cared for, how few friends he has, and she has to wonder why. ]
Although I confess, some of the things you say leave me wondering. You speak as if your life is of little worth, Xie Lian.
[ at that, he laughs a little, and reaches up to scratch his cheek. ]
Ah, well.
...In my own realm, I am a bit... erm... unkillable? [ haha. ha. ] My body is functionally immortal. I've "died" in the sense that someone has performed a killing blow on me more times than you could probably count... So, jumping in front of someone else to protect them is something I am quite used to.
[ a beat. ] - I think I would do the same even if it weren't that way, but that's probably besides the point.
[ (swerves away from the sad) anyway i'm immortal ]
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It...what Archer did - were our situations reversed, I like to think I would have done the same. To protect someone important to me... really, to protect almost anyone. I was willing to take the vote, that first week, when we had no suspects at all, but today...
...but Emet-Selch was guilty. And, at the same time, he was not. He took someone else's life in self defense - someone that I cared about very much - but it was still in self-defense. And I do not fault him for doing so.
There is nothing here that is black and white. [ he finishes finally, letting out a sigh. ] So it is hard to feel anything but lost, the more of these trials that come by.
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Archer isn't one to offer his life so willingly for just any reason, but...
[ She looks thoughtful, as if trying to be careful about what she says next. ]
I would think his reason is worth it. He is pragmatic even if he holds great affection.
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...I had wondered, perhaps, if it was more than just care for someone else that led him to do so.
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[ Her smile is faint. ]
But I do think Archer thinks through his choices carefully. He is called a sage for good reason.
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...Archer and I are very similar, in many ways. Our thoughts have aligned more or less since we first arrived here, and I respect him greatly, and that has not changed.
It will always be hard for me, to watch someone stand up to take death for someone else. Perhaps it is simply because I've always been in that position, instead of watching from the sideline...and I have always felt that if I could be the one preventing it from happening, it would be different, simply because I have often not mattered to many, and death has never once touched my door permanently.
[ xie lian huffs a laugh. ] I suppose that is hypocritical of me. It is no fault of Archer's that I did not want to let things happen that way - it is my own.
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It takes certain experiences and a certain kind of enlightenment to have that kind of self-awareness.
[ However, it worries her, the words he says and the subtext that comes with it—how much he's hinted about not being cared for, how few friends he has, and she has to wonder why. ]
Although I confess, some of the things you say leave me wondering. You speak as if your life is of little worth, Xie Lian.
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Ah, well.
...In my own realm, I am a bit... erm... unkillable? [ haha. ha. ] My body is functionally immortal. I've "died" in the sense that someone has performed a killing blow on me more times than you could probably count... So, jumping in front of someone else to protect them is something I am quite used to.
[ a beat. ] - I think I would do the same even if it weren't that way, but that's probably besides the point.
[ (swerves away from the sad) anyway i'm immortal ]
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It is one thing to use your abilities for what they are, but... [ Her brows furrow. ] It speaks something, you know.
[ Throwing away your life like that. Even if you're functionally immortal, that still sends an unspoken message. ]
And I think there's someone here who would grieve you. Many someones who would.
[ Since they're all without their powers here, and therefore, it is not that way. ]