[ izumo is valid. he also is going to dodge any sort of memory bubbles. ]
...I had a conversation earlier with my Leader this week, and I learned that they may be able to carry over gifts to the removed. There is no guarantee that the gifts will be perfectly intact when they arrive, as the journey to where they are is quite dangerous even still, but it brought to mind our conversation about offerings earlier last week, and how important they are.
[ izumo really has lost a lot, here - and, with what they'd been talking about last week, xie lian wanted to make sure that she was aware of the little piece of information he'd learned. he gives her a smile, gentle and kind. ]
I was wondering if perhaps you might be interested in sending a gift or offering to anyone on the other side. You were the first person that came to mind.
[ please not horrid memories while they're talking about good and wholesome things to do for the dead. ]
I, is that right?
[ first the notes about how they can actually communicate with them and now being able to send something to them—it's kind of amazing, honestly. whether this be the work of nova purely or somewhat as an after effect of her kamidana she can't be upset either way. ]
[ xie lian laughs, a little, scratching his cheek. ]
My leader said simple things would work best. It couldn't be a note or anything, because that would likely get distorted, but. Snacks, flowers, little gifts - nothing much different than what we might make for a normal offering! I was thinking I might write a protective talisman for someone. It wouldn't be effective like it would be at home, really, but it might be nice.
But if you'd like to send anything at all, I would be more than happy to pass it along for you.
[ sorry she's going to have a quick thinky think moment here. ]
I'd have to think about something...
[ notes get distorted but?? snacks and flowers are fine. could something be done within those confines? writing someone on a snack would be cheating, right..? ]
If... If we can send them things and they can send things back to us—then maybe we can see what it's like where they are.
[ not a bad thing. xie lian tilts his head, his expression thoughtful. ]
That's not a bad idea. Are you thinking of creating some sort of code, Miss Izumo? Whatever we do, it would probably need to be tested, first - my leader was not entirely sure of what or how things may get distorted, since they have not yet tried this.
No, no code. I don't trust anyone over there to be smart enough to figure out any code I leave for them.
[ they are probably smart people but she trusts NONE of them to suddenly be able to understand any kind of code. straight-forwardness from the start, thanks. ]
But, if we're able to send over snacks maybe we can put letters on them so they can unscramble it for a message. ...you know, if it isn't sent over with the message still intact.
[ xie lian doesn't laugh, to his credit, but. izumo please. so sharp tongued, this one...
anyway he will gracefully move on. ]
Ah, that isn't a bad idea. Sort of like the hint we got, this last week? Perhaps we can try to send a simple message, just to see if it will work, first...?
[ she says what she says!!! ...except when it's about her feelings then it's muddied water. ]
Yeah, pretty much. [ she'll sigh. ] But definitely something easier to understand then the mess they gave us. I think a simple phrase or a word might be the easiest to start with.
Maybe "H-I-N-T-?", though I guess that is quite short... Or... "S-P-L-I-N-T-E-R-?"
That has been my biggest wonder - if Miss Yoshizawa's nova was splintering. In fact, does she even remember what happened? Do any of them? I feel as though we know so little.
"Hint" has less letters that could be misconstrued, so I'd say that might our better guess. Not to mention, it gives them more to work with in answering the questions that we have.
[ though the mentioning of sumi makes her frown. ]
...do you really think Yoshizawa had nova that was splintering? If that was really the case then why wouldn't the one to kill her do it cleanly?
[ or you know. literally anything other than what actually happened. ]
I don't know. [ that's a genuine, honest answer. xie lian looks down at his lap, troubled. he has felt every loss in this place deeply, but none perhaps so seriously as what happened to yoshizawa, if only because of the utterly brutal circumstances. ]
I couldn't... I don't know if it was her, or her killer's, or if was even Shiro's. But I think it had to be someone. And if they can remember on the other side, then maybe we can try to put together more of the pieces. I just...
...She must have suffered so much. [ he finishes, softly, quietly somber. ]
[ one of the two if not both of them? had to have a splintering nova. she is, in some way, still entertaining the idea that maybe someone with a splintering nova is responsible for the brutal murder. it isn't just right. ]
She really did suffer.
[ and it makes her sick and blood boil when she recalls it. ]
...and the monster responsible for it should also suffer. I wouldn't be as unkind to say that they deserve the same fate as her, but they shouldn't get off easy.
xie lian has more unanswered questions than he has any desire to strike back - but the fact that this person walks undetected among them is deeply troubling. ] I would like to find them as quickly as possible. If nothing else, I think all of us have questions for that person - and the longer we wait, the more likely the answers to those questions may fade.
Right. [ a slight pause as she consider things. ] Not too along ago, I wouldn't have wanted to put so much attention in making sure that I could maintain my memory as it is, but coming here...
[ a very soft laugh and a shake of her head. ]
What's the saying? Something about how you don't know what you had until it's gone?
[ then again, they might not know it's gone either... ]
...Mn. [ xie lian's answer noise is thoughtful. he glances down at his hands for a moment. ]
I have lived such a long life, that I am sure I have forgotten many things. I have always said that it is better to try and hold onto the small, simple things that make your life better - a well cooked meal, a beautifully starry sky... but as I start to lose more here, I feel the absences to the point that it is impossible to ignore.
...I am not afraid of losing who I am, because I think I will still be me, even without it. There are some convictions that I know will not leave me. [ ...
he softens, a little though, and just for a moment, xie lian looks...tired, like someone who has lived for eight hundred years. ] ...But there are things that only I remember, and...I do not want to forget.
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...I had a conversation earlier with my Leader this week, and I learned that they may be able to carry over gifts to the removed. There is no guarantee that the gifts will be perfectly intact when they arrive, as the journey to where they are is quite dangerous even still, but it brought to mind our conversation about offerings earlier last week, and how important they are.
[ izumo really has lost a lot, here - and, with what they'd been talking about last week, xie lian wanted to make sure that she was aware of the little piece of information he'd learned. he gives her a smile, gentle and kind. ]
I was wondering if perhaps you might be interested in sending a gift or offering to anyone on the other side. You were the first person that came to mind.
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I, is that right?
[ first the notes about how they can actually communicate with them and now being able to send something to them—it's kind of amazing, honestly. whether this be the work of nova purely or somewhat as an after effect of her kamidana she can't be upset either way. ]
What...what were you thinking of trying to send?
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My leader said simple things would work best. It couldn't be a note or anything, because that would likely get distorted, but. Snacks, flowers, little gifts - nothing much different than what we might make for a normal offering! I was thinking I might write a protective talisman for someone. It wouldn't be effective like it would be at home, really, but it might be nice.
But if you'd like to send anything at all, I would be more than happy to pass it along for you.
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I'd have to think about something...
[ notes get distorted but?? snacks and flowers are fine. could something be done within those confines? writing someone on a snack would be cheating, right..? ]
If... If we can send them things and they can send things back to us—then maybe we can see what it's like where they are.
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That's not a bad idea. Are you thinking of creating some sort of code, Miss Izumo? Whatever we do, it would probably need to be tested, first - my leader was not entirely sure of what or how things may get distorted, since they have not yet tried this.
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[ they are probably smart people but she trusts NONE of them to suddenly be able to understand any kind of code. straight-forwardness from the start, thanks. ]
But, if we're able to send over snacks maybe we can put letters on them so they can unscramble it for a message. ...you know, if it isn't sent over with the message still intact.
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anyway he will gracefully move on. ]
Ah, that isn't a bad idea. Sort of like the hint we got, this last week? Perhaps we can try to send a simple message, just to see if it will work, first...?
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Yeah, pretty much. [ she'll sigh. ] But definitely something easier to understand then the mess they gave us. I think a simple phrase or a word might be the easiest to start with.
[ DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT THE HINT IS?? ]
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[ considering, considering....! ]
Maybe "H-I-N-T-?", though I guess that is quite short... Or... "S-P-L-I-N-T-E-R-?"
That has been my biggest wonder - if Miss Yoshizawa's nova was splintering. In fact, does she even remember what happened? Do any of them? I feel as though we know so little.
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[ though the mentioning of sumi makes her frown. ]
...do you really think Yoshizawa had nova that was splintering? If that was really the case then why wouldn't the one to kill her do it cleanly?
[ or you know. literally anything other than what actually happened. ]
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I couldn't... I don't know if it was her, or her killer's, or if was even Shiro's. But I think it had to be someone. And if they can remember on the other side, then maybe we can try to put together more of the pieces. I just...
...She must have suffered so much. [ he finishes, softly, quietly somber. ]
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She really did suffer.
[ and it makes her sick and blood boil when she recalls it. ]
...and the monster responsible for it should also suffer. I wouldn't be as unkind to say that they deserve the same fate as her, but they shouldn't get off easy.
[ ... ]
If we can find them.
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violence always begets violence.
xie lian has more unanswered questions than he has any desire to strike back - but the fact that this person walks undetected among them is deeply troubling. ] I would like to find them as quickly as possible. If nothing else, I think all of us have questions for that person - and the longer we wait, the more likely the answers to those questions may fade.
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[ a very soft laugh and a shake of her head. ]
What's the saying? Something about how you don't know what you had until it's gone?
[ then again, they might not know it's gone either... ]
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I have lived such a long life, that I am sure I have forgotten many things. I have always said that it is better to try and hold onto the small, simple things that make your life better - a well cooked meal, a beautifully starry sky... but as I start to lose more here, I feel the absences to the point that it is impossible to ignore.
...I am not afraid of losing who I am, because I think I will still be me, even without it. There are some convictions that I know will not leave me. [ ...
he softens, a little though, and just for a moment, xie lian looks...tired, like someone who has lived for eight hundred years. ] ...But there are things that only I remember, and...I do not want to forget.