And you haven't? [ xie lian asks, quietly, easily turning that question back on him - whether xie lian has suffered or not, whether he's had a role or not, that doesn't matter. suffering is suffering. gods, humans, ghosts - they're all equal. they all suffer pain.
he leans up when hua cheng leans down, tipping his head up to look at him, and, eventually, lifting his hand up to brush his fingers against his cheek. his hand lingers, for a moment, and he-- centers himself. takes the misery, takes the suffering, and pushes it away. ]
...I think I am missing some very important things. [ ... ] ...But, in a way, that makes me feel more hopeful, to know that what I am remembering may not be true.
[ xie lian smiles - he looks exhausted, still, and it's not at all bright, but, he's going for reassuring, here. ] We're almost to the end, now.
I... wish I had been successful today, but... there is nothing I can do to change what already happened.
[ a beat. ] ...I'm sorry that I couldn't tell you until today, San Lang. I couldn't risk it.
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he leans up when hua cheng leans down, tipping his head up to look at him, and, eventually, lifting his hand up to brush his fingers against his cheek. his hand lingers, for a moment, and he-- centers himself. takes the misery, takes the suffering, and pushes it away. ]
...I think I am missing some very important things. [ ... ] ...But, in a way, that makes me feel more hopeful, to know that what I am remembering may not be true.
[ xie lian smiles - he looks exhausted, still, and it's not at all bright, but, he's going for reassuring, here. ] We're almost to the end, now.
I... wish I had been successful today, but... there is nothing I can do to change what already happened.
[ a beat. ] ...I'm sorry that I couldn't tell you until today, San Lang. I couldn't risk it.